18.7.05

My reason for why I haven't posted in a while, our Norton system wasn't reinstalled when our DSL was hooked back up for almost a week and naturally we got a virus. Amazingly enough it was a Trojan Horse and I found out when I was installing Norton and basically our computer crashed, then I was able to restore it and then it crashed and burned the following morning.

I called up Geek Squad but it would take over a week for them to come and fix it, so Mum, Sonya and I went out and bought a new computer. I just find it awesomely powerful just to give up on one computer and buy another one, Mum, sometimes you Truly do amaze me^_^

So, new computer means, we actually have a sound system again! And "My heart explodes with joy!" Ah ha ha ha, it's an Invader Zim thing, a Must see show. . .

But still, I'm quite rightly happy, especially with Sonya being over for a couple more days. It took a while for me to realise how much I miss everyone and just having someone here with me, that isn't a blood relative, has been one of the best parts of this crazed summer, because so much has happened to me, yet so little has been able to occur. This is probably my last free-to-be summer and I actually wanted to be able to spend time with those I won't see as often anymore, A.K.A. - You All!, and yet it's just been turned into a summer of Babysitting, every week of this summer I've had a child or children to take care of, with help from my siblings, we've all just worked together.

Quite frankly, with all of that, it's made me Extremely sceptical about ever having my own, it's Way too much hassel, and I don't even have a job, yet. And most importantly, I've become a neat freak and with having toddlers around. . . I'm just amazed that I still have all my hair and Never hit any of them, unless playfully^^;.

Yet still, I don't know how Lynda still believes that I'll be a great mum. . . Love for children is an ironic, bittersweet, love and I think I would give prayers to God everynight for patience,strength, and simple Thanks for making it through the day. It just wears me down, but I can't deny love for them. The twist is I love babies and their innocence, but I can't stand Toddlers and their button pushing wahala, check that out I've even started picking up Igbo because of them too^^;. : :Igbo(ee-boe), my native tongue: :

Seriously, it's All just a mad twist with everything together and separate.

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