22.7.05

"so say you have a person in your life that you know loves you. sometimes, it seems as though the two of you arent as close as you could be or used to be but you know that they're always there if you need them. you know that they will try to understand whatever you need them to. you just know who you are to them. so far they've kind of just conveniently been there whenever, so how do you tell them point-blank that you need them? how do you know that they're there? and how exactly do you find a way to kindly break someone's heart? and why am i so attached to all the things i know poison me?"

And so, I feel that "Love" is a relationship of its own. It's an intoxicating, amazing, thing when both sides are giving what they can and maybe even more.

"Love is a many splendid thing, all you need is love." [Moulin Rouge]

Maybe all we really want is love, yet not many can love a stone. I feel it loving to return love and maybe add a little more than what you were given. You may openly need them and they may silently need you, and yet that can some how work out if a form of equality is placed in for the circle to be complete and both are happy with what is bestowed upon them, which is love, care and consideration, and what they give back, which is usually love, care, consideration and gratitude.

With need, no one says that one is obligated to tell whosoever that they need them., well, that's in the World of the Chi [naturally]. I feel that one can deeply imply it without having to be blunt. With simple contact with them, for advice or whatever matters the most. But make sure to be appreciative about it and let them understand that they have meaning to you. It's allowing them to be aware of the fact that they are important to you. However! It's never a terrible thing to just say what's the simple truth of how one feels about another.

I hope that all readers realise that this is all from simple assumptions, though I do not enjoy speaking through assumptions alone. So, naturally, Jordan, you have all right to correct me in all areas of wrongfulness and just simple inaccuracy.

tea is served @ 1:48 p. m. --------------------------------------------------------------