26.7.05

Ten Thousand Villages is a non-profit store that just sells thousands of items made by people across the globe that create Many crafts and the money you pay is sent to the creators and it Greatly helps them out. Go find one soon, hopefully there may be one in Chicago or so, it's well worth Every penny and just fabulous stuff there, though all I could really buy were Indian candles, because they can fit in my bag^^:.

However, my vacation is slowly coming to an end, yet not many will be able to catch me until next week, so it's more that I'll be making calls, unless you Really want to on Thursday and Friday night, though I should be practicing my audition music because I'm as timidly frightened as a mouse about that. . . Oh so scared. . .

So, with a song from The Faint running through my head, they're a Great band to listen to, with all the background strings and such, I've realised that there's so much out there that "schooling" isn't showing you, that you have to find on your own. I just found out exactly How messed up governments are, with the book The Brutallity of Nations. It's actually about the war in Nigeria against the I[g]bos, which is my family tribe and it's just a terrible starvation technique used, the whole world knew about it, and yet certain things were concealed as to keep commerce running in Britain and Nigeria. The I[g]bos seceded from Nigeria and were just Horribly screwd over and it's just a Huge thing that happened.

What gets me the most is how I found out through a book and not through my parents or anything. My mum was about 10 when it began, but thankfully, she was moved to a part of Nigeria were she was safe with her brothers, my uncles.

But, what gets me is how so many friends can tell me about their heritage and past and things like " . . . My grandfather was an orphan . . . " and so on. And here I am, with a dark heritage filled with many stories of corruption that I'm ignorant of. I feel that I don't know of it because so many times left too deep a scar for any of the adults to sit me down about tell me about. Plus, I'd probably find various parts to be bias and propaganda and racist and all that smoosh. Which, in a sense, is natural, but not what I always wish to hear, but am usually glad to hear about.

Not saying that I wish I knew my background better, well, in a sense I do feel that way, yet not to the level of envy. Though my roots go far, it doesn't mean that I have to know Everything, simply knowing the funny/good times are great enough. [Like the story of my father and his fad with those lovely platform shoes of the seventies, ah a great memory-story indeed^_^.]

Basically, I wish I knew more, but am quite content with what I know and with the ability to easily learn more through report books. And also, something that I'm asking of the readers to do, for the sake of kindness, Pray for the World.

Please, Pray to God for peace to come back and reign, for evil and "terror" to fade away as a storm does. All these bombings are just. . . are just too much. I just pray that God will grant us each strength to bring peace into our own lives, so that we can be inspired to bring peace back to the rest of the world, because I just feel that with so many bombings going on and then all these emotions in my heart for the simple moment, I just feel slightly lost.

I know the world is not crumbling down, but I feel that enough is Enough. If we don't aim to vow to not repeat the mistakes of today and mend the broken, how can we be dreamers for tomorrow?

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