20.5.05

I just find the "Sparkling Diamonds" song to be quite humours, but no as much as Ritchie's brother in "La Bamba" when he said " . . I almost have to rape her just to have sex." Oh man, that'll keep me laughing for Years0_0.

You must excuse my slacking with posting as in posting my feelings/thoughts/ideas posting of recent. My mind man, it's just been having a field day all week and I'm actually quite happy, proud, and amazed of how calm I've been able to keep myself. Didn't even snap on anybody.^_^ YaYa!

But aye, some things haven't been good for all of us, it's more from the vibes and little said than of what I've been told, though I've barely heard much, as of recent. But still, though I've evolved from the crazy happy chica of 7th grade that's constantly willing to listen and from the academically crazy, study hard, slightly cold Chi of 8th grade, into this kind of cold, common sense says "Shut your north and south"/ screw it I'm going to dance/ "you all seem like flowers and birds to me" person, it's still Chichi. It's still Elizabeth that's willing to help out.

I may sometimes come off as mean, but if you listen to the things everyone says, just listen and not respond, like just think about it, me getting stressed and mad makes sense, stupidity has become a popularity and whining is the way to go with all my peers.

I'm still completely willing to help and give advice, but, firstly, if you don't let me know, I'm free to act out my opinions however I choose because I have no clue what's up with you. Secondly, stuff happens with me, there things about my past I'm still finding out important things and so, darn skippidy, I'll have my days and that natural tendency of just having no one around me.

But I don't know, if you really care about me too and check in on things, it's easy to see I'm just a more matured/conscious/cautious Chi. I may seem mean, but it's only the truth and it doesn't mean that I'm not willing to hear out what needs to be said. And remember, you revolve around the world, it doesn't revolve around you. And when crap happens to you, it's likely to have already happened before and even worse and if not, than be the first to experience it and overcome it with faith in yourself and in God that things will work out. . . Have some trust in God, it doesn't hurt. And if you feel He's left you, then you need to check yourself and realise you're steering away from him because evidently you must have not accepted an event or the outcome of it. But we all can't get what we want or else the world would be fair. And plus, when God shuts one door, it's only for the better, through another one.

Pace [Italiano por "paz,"(peace): Pah-chay ]

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