30.3.05
But. . . I feel so low with things. Nothing feels Exciting anymore. Surely, soccer has been beyond awesome so far, but I only get hyped up, for it, for games.
For the most part, I blame routine. Of course schedules are great because you have a plan and have an idea of what you're going to do. Spontaneous is wonderfully splendid though. I love to go do something out of the ordinary. Wake up, get ready for the day, and run off to some where. I just want to get away and not feel "responsible" for at least a day. I can't take care of all my obligations because I have no flame to light my mind up and give me candlelight in order to do it. I feel like someone's been drinking that candlelight and I can't find or stop them.
Routine is just a horrible thing. Always the same things happening and all around you turns from a bright sunny day into a day of greyness and gloom. . . I should have left with Nanci, yeah I could have been kicked off the team and all, but it surely would have made Spring Break lots more exciting. Or maybe I should just try to do something with someone, hmm? Get out of my shell. All, it's all, because I'm so restless, uhhhhh.
tea is served @ 11:51 a. m.
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